lol..this is probably the longest I've been away from my blog.
I almost forgot I had one if not for the lovely tags I'd received from the few of you.
You know who you are..so thank you. :D

What motivates me to post is when I have something to share with myself.
Something I feel I must type into words.

I've been busy ever since the start of the holidays.. though it's not because of outings nor work. I'm just very contented with sleeping and sitting in front of my computer. The other day I stepped out of my house for a while and immediately I felt alienated and a bit fearful of people walking down the street. Kept on thinking to myself why the hell are they staring at me; is there a gaping hole in my clothes or is my hair messy or what?! I wonder if I'm the only one who feels this?
So you see.. I've become rather paranoid and out of touch with this world.
I should really encourage myself to step out of my comfort zone more often.

And the reason why I was busy.. let's see.
Those who really know me would know that I'm an avid forum-goer.
Forums, naturally, is a place for convergence of diverse opinions.
and if there's one thing I could learn from there, it's me starting to dislike narrow-minded people. Yes the wide array of opinions on the forum I visit regularly taught me to be open-minded. Plus conversing with people from different parts of the world is really fulfilling. I even exchanged recipes with a Hungarian friend! Though I have no idea what I'm going to do with them since I really can't cook.
I don't know. I'm beginning to yearn for a migration to other countries. Sure Singapore is nice, safe and all but it lacks interesting places and people.

With me, holidays are a love-hate relationship.
The time to relax is a pro of course.. the other thing is the lack of a purpose.
I always feel purposeless during the hols. The sense of emptiness and under-achievement is gnarling away inside. Now some might say, you could just get off your lazy bum and find some work!
Just the other thing to bitch about. I am really sick of following schedules. Going to school is more than enough for me. Don't get me wrong, I love schools but I do not really need a work schedule during my free time too. Anyone notice that all of our lives are based on schedules? From the time you wake up to the time you step into your bed. The buses you wait for have a time schedule, the lunch hour in school or work, the allocated timeslot for your favourite tv programmes etc. It's useful for maintaining order and promptness but sometimes I guess I just feel rebellious against this uniformity.

Wow. Looking back on this post and the archives, I can tell the impression I've given others in real life and what I have here online is really different.
A blog-hopper like me knows others who are like that too.
Some blogs are really easy to read, like a book. They give off the same vibe as the blogger. Others well.. the blog and the person are on the opposite ends of the poles.

Interesting creation..this blog thingy. :)