There it is again. the familiar onset of birthday blues.
I don't think I've ever been genuinely happy since 15.
Everytime my birthday comes around, I will start thinking about what I should do with my life.

There are many things I wanted in life that I couldn't get.
Sometimes I wish I was born in a different continent; different country.
Where the pace of life is slow and I get to treasure the small things in life.
Sometimes I lie in bed at night and reflect upon my day.
Did I do the right thing? What should I have said? Why didn't I do this or that?

There was a period in secondary school when I was real emo on my blog.
I can even cry when I am blogging here while listening to some emo song.
Then I decided to snap out of it. Being emo doesn't help shit.
Your life isn't going to get better by moping around and feeling sorry for yourself. One day you're going to wake up and find out that you have been left behind. Lucky I got out of this phase fast.

One day, as I was sitting in a lecture, it hit me that I was gonna be one of those people who leave behind a ton of regrets when they died.
The very thought was fearful.
That's why I've decided to seize the day by making a wishlist of my own.
Life goals I hope I can achieve before my life burns out.
It's very fitting in my opinion, especially since I'm embarking on a new decade of my life.
I think the very top of the list would be a visit to Japan.
Who knows when I will get there if I wait around for my friends.

People are like stained-glass windows.
They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within.
- Elizabeth Kubler Ross